I am a sugarholic. There, I've said it.
Today, I ate 6 creme eggs and a bag of giant buttons.
Yesterday, I ate a box of Milk Tray. I then shared a crunchie and a fudge with my husband before eating a wispa, a flake and a chocolate chip cereal bar.
Last weekend, I ate a lemon drizzle cake, a double chocolate cake and a madeira cake (and by cake, I mean a cake that was baked with the intent of being shared between several people, not a cupcake). I can't remember the rest but believe me, there was more!
I've spent a lot of time, in between the (daily) mouthfuls, trying to figure out why I'm consuming such hideous amounts of sugar and it's because I'm tired. I'm just so, so exhausted from having two little children; one of whom is currently waking 3+ times a night. It's a vicious circle. I eat because I'm tired -> my body then craves more sugar -> I feel more sluggish and tired -> I eat some more sugar.
I've got away with it so far because on the surface, my weight : height ratio is fine and I try to dress in such a way that my flabby areas are concealed and therefore "out of mind". But deep down, I know it's only a matter of time before my poor diet catches up with me and it is a truly awful diet. We're talking no fresh fruit, infrequent portions of vegetables, and food stuffs that are high in saturated fat or sugar.
This has to stop. I can't go on eating like this. It's making me feel really bad about myself and I'm sure my health must be suffering, even if it's not immediately obvious. So what am I going to do about it?
This is going to be tough but I don't think I'm going to get anywhere unless I have a 48 hour detox from all the chocolate and other sugary treats. And the thought of having to dredge up enough will power for those 48 hours scares me.
What am I going to eat????
I'll soon tell you. I'm starting tomorrow.