My first son : seeing him take his first steps; seeing his confidence grow; hearing his first words; watching his relationships with others develop.
My second son : his birth; his first smile; watching his personality develop; watching the bond with his brother grow.
My husband : passing a particularly difficult exam; significantly improving his health and fitness by losing 7.5 stone since April 2010 and by maintaining his new healthy eating and exercise regime.
2. What was the saddest thing to happen?
Although not an actual event, I think it was the moment I realised the way I've been feeling isn't right. I hesitate to use the words postnatal depression because I don't know if I am or if I'm just sleep deprived. Whatever it may be, I'm off to see my doctor this week to talk about my physical and emotional issues.
3. What was the most unlikely thing to happen that actually went ahead and did?
I had a gut feeling my second son would be born before his due date. What I didn't expect was for him to arrive 3 weeks early and for the labour to be so quick that I delivered him in our en suite bathroom before the paramedics had chance to arrive. Very unlikely and not an experience I'm keen to repeat!
4. Who let you down?
Without wanting to go into any detail, I was let down in the sense there was an occasion where I was misjudged and never given the chance to give "my side of the story". I did, and still do, feel incredibly saddened by the whole thing.
5. Who supported you?
My husband was my greatest source of support. He did everything he could to help make my life easier when I was pregnant and after the birth, when I was establishing breastfeeding. He regularly reminds me that this tough baby stage will soon pass and I'll be able to do things for myself again before I know it.
6. Tell us one thing you learned
Giving birth without any pain relief is not for me!
7. Tell us one thing that made you laugh
My first son learning to say "mummy/daddy/nanny did it". The funny thing is the way he looks around the room to assess who isn't there before promptly proclaiming that they did it.
8. Tell us one thing that made you cry
Lots of things made me cry. I can safely say it wasn't my year physically or mentally/emotionally and I'm sad about that. I really want 2012 to be different.
9. Tell us three things your child or children did to make you feel proud
I can't narrow it down. They're so little that everything and anything they do makes me proud.
10. Tell us one thing that made you proud of yourself
I know the answer should be giving birth but weirdly, I feel particularly proud that I started and completed my 12 days of Buffy challenge, as it's well known that both starting and finishing projects is not one of my strong points.
11. Tell us one challenge you overcame
I made it through the year without having any kind of breakdown.
12. Tell us three things you would like to change about your life in 2011
- I would like to sort out my physical health issues.
- I would like to find and embrace a healthier and more balanced mental/emotional state.
- I would like to make some space in my life that's just for me.
I'm now going to tag the following bloggers to see what they want to share about 2011:
Liz at Margot And Barbara
Kate at Life, Love And Living With Boys
Jude at Jude Wharton
Karen at Missing Sleep
Otilia at Romanian Mum