Sunday, 4 December 2011

12 days of Buffy : teacher's pet

Ah, 16 year old boys and the things they'd have you believe about their sexual exploits.

Fortunately, and unlike in episode 4 of Buffy the Vampire Slayer, their tall tales rarely lead to them being drugged by their substitute teacher who then bites off their head as she mates with them.

Did I mention the teacher's actually a preying mantis? A REALLY big one!

Okay, so I was hoping to write an amusing post about teenagers but I'll be honest, I feel really low tonight and I'm not completely sure how this happened.

One of the factors contributing to my mood is that I failed to cross a task off my to-do list. I spent all morning thinking I had all afternoon to do it. Then we went out and I thought, never mind, I'll get something done while husband's sorting bathtime. This would've been fine except when it came down to it, I realised that the stretch of time while they're all in the bath isn't long enough to get all my 'normal' pre-bedtime jobs done AND something extra.

I tried to say to myself, it's alright, just get the Christmas shopping done - that's on the list - and at least you can sit at the laptop to do it. But I knew it wasn't going to happen. I find the whole bloody shopping thing SO stressful; the trying to figure out what to get everyone to the trying to source it at the best price so it sits within our tight budget. Garg! My blood is bubbling and my head throbbing just thinking about it!

So that's it then. Challenge failed. Game over. Except my brain didn't stop there. Oh no. It helpfully decided that I must therefore be failing at everything else in my life.

Surely it shouldn't be this hard to get things done each day? I'm 34 so shouldn't I be more than capable of managing my time by now? Is it just me? Am I the only one that finds it hard - sometimes impossible - to keep on top of things now I have 2 children? I honestly feel like it is. Worse yet, I feel like people are waiting for me to fail. That they'd be happy if I couldn't cope because they never thought I'd be able to in the first place.

Does it get better/easier? Please tell me it does and that when the kids are a bit older and I'm getting a bit more sleep, I'll be able to merrily juggle, well everything, while patting my head and rubbing my stomach.

On the plus side, the #teambuffy girls have been on hand with soothing words and a reminder that sometimes life gets in the way and it's important not to put too much pressure on yourself. It helps me feel less like a failure and more like someone that needs to pick herself up, dust herself off and start again tomorrow. And I will. I'm not going to give up now.

For a more upbeat 12 days of Buffy challenge update, head on over to Audioboo to hear from Nyssapod. You can also follow her progress at minibreakmummy.

When you've done that, pop on over to Chapters of Claire where you'll find Claire's challenge updates.

And after that, go and visit Made by Tamsin who, inspired by this 12 days of Buffy challenge, has challenged herself to publish a post every day of the advent calendar.

Finally, and as I've been saying every day so far, there's still time for you to join #teambuffy and jump into the 8 remaining days of this challenge. You don't have to be a fan of Buffy - you just have to have a desire to get rid of some of those jobs you've been putting off for a while. And as this post has shown, sometimes you don't even have to do that!

See you tomorrow x


Tamsin said...

Things do get better, honest! Looking after a toddler and a baby is hard work, let alone getting anything else done. Repeat the mantra 'this is a phase'...

Mummygadgetgeek said...

I don't think you are alone in feeling this way. It does suck when you've really hoped to achieve something and then you aren't able to get round to it for one reason or another - but don't worry! You'll get there in the end.

And, of course, if things don't get done then generally its not a massive problem - unless it leads to your house burning down or the end of the world, or something big like that!

I'm always just impressed when people with two kids - or more (myself included) - manage to sit down and write something vaguely coherent.

So be proud of yourself for that!

PS. Just in case you're wondering, it's more than vaguely coherent. And I always did enjoy watching Buffy although I have to say I haven't done so for quite some time...

Unknown said...

I'm not sure if it's any consolation, but the fact that things didn't go according to plan yesterday made for an interesting blogpost. I find it enough of a challenge getting things done with one toddler around, so I'm always impressed with people who are able to cope with more than one little'un. (My toddler's just joined me on my lap so I'll stop there!)
Good luck with day 5!
Ruth x

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